Recommended in 16th attempt from 32SSB kapurthala
I am Abhishek Bawa and i got recommended from 32SSB Kapurthala in my 16th attempt. I am writing this for all the repeaters who want their next attempt to be the last one.
I started my SSB journey back in 2013 after graduating from the field of Civil Engineering. My First attempt was in Allahabad, i was new to procedure and went without any preparation. The result was conference out.
After that i gave few more attempts and then understood that this procedure is very scientific where you can’t escape or go through just being lucky.
I started thinking about all my failures and working hard towards my goal. Every time when my name was not announced over there it was hard to call back home and tell my family that i am coming home. With each and every attempt i improved and the motivation of fellow aspirants and my seniors who are already in forces helped me a lot. I always knew that i can do it but i was searching only one answer to a very important question in mind, how?
Then i thought even if i won’t make it in forces i need to live a disciplined life so that even if i am living a civilian life, i am living it like an officer.I made a proper daily routine and started following it strictly and this helped me lot.
Second thing which i did was on field, during my 16th attempt at SSB i was not at all bothered about the result. I thought i need not to do self introspection after every test because it is going to hamper my performance in the other tests.
I did not write any pre conceived ideas in stories even if images were familiar. I wrote what came in my mind and as i said i did not think much. I don’t know how my Psycology test was. I went to my Interviews and GTO tests with same mindset.
I just enjoyed my time without thinking about the performance of mine and group members and stayed away from judgemental discussions of whose efforts were good or bad. On the final day i dressed nicely and basic questions were asked during conference. Conference procedure was as same as my previous attempts but the result was not.
Our Psyc came and started announcing result after long speech. I did not believe my ears when i heard who is chest no 11.
Tears started rolling and i was not even able to talk to anyone for next 15 mins and the best moment of my life came when i did call my mother and informed “Mumma, i am not coming home this time”
That feeling can’t be expressed in words. My medicals went well and i was declared fit.
Now i got AIR-4 in merit of TGC-128 and joining Indian Military Academy on 1st of January.
I want to thank each and everyone who guided me, motivated me and supported me through my tough times. I still think i am an average guy with not much of talent, if i can-you also can. Every attempt is a new attempt so make it count.
I will be lucky if i can get any query from your side. You can email me at firstname.lastname@example.org